Here She Lies

She raises her arm to scratch her nape. She waits, unsure if she should be relieved. Part of her is curious as to where he is, another part mad at the other for being remotely concerned.

But she is relieved. She is, well, still alive and all in one piece.
But still, that curious part of her pinches her ear lobe every now and then. As if some part is, well, not there. She glances at her notebook, comforted by the thought that she has much work to do. She cannot afford to miss this deadline. Not again.

No urge to begin, though. She places her pen on the table, grabs it again and taps it on her forehead. The taps wake no idea up. She is thrown back to that one neat night. She resists but is overwhelmed by her desire to stay.

She is back and she is not leaving.
And the pieces of a story went falling into place as her pen on the table jumped to life.
As her pen on the table jumped to lie.

caught up

mikey and pola.
two wonderful people.

we miss reg.
we miss kakki.
we miss vica.
we laughed at vica.

but i had a good time
just catching up
on what pola and mikey are now up to.

and no matter how many tears mikey will have to shed thanks to puns intended
or how many tears of joy i have to shed thanks to pola's stories
or how many tears pola will have to shed thanks to her company secretary's menstrual period

i will be thankful to two of them people
who will not be too conscious
of my inconsistencies.

thank you pola! imelda tour with mikey soon. PLEASE.

lisnin to Through the Fire
sortof readin Sociological Imagination
feelin kinda happy.

letting it be

a friend of mine shared
that after going through something really sad,
you'll never be as happy as you were before.

maybe because you are now a different person
a changed man.

it sounded a lot more sad than that though
when he shared it.

did not quite believe the thought entirely.
until it dawned on me
while jogging on campus

how easy it was to associate any thought, any statement
to a bad memory

then it haunts you
then a rush of emotions
then you just want to stop and take it all in.

then pray to God that
yes, i'll never be as happy
but i better be happier.


now on a much more cheesy note,
here's a really cool video for the graduating seniors of 2008.
good job gali, james and anj!



here's to the haunting.