always childlike

thank you for the greetings, you guys.
it was an interesting birthday.

one that merits another bottle of wine.
even if it's almost always in the middle of some tropical storm

strong, wet, and hard.

and as dubious as those three words
are the days to come.

but before that,
i thank You for the
good two decades-worth
of living.

now on to living well.

lisnin to phone message alerts
sortof readin news articles
feelin kinda hungry.

you're way too

damn all these beautiful girls...
you have me suicidal

-Sean Kingston

I have Me suicidal.
smiles.
TEST 1 2 3.

BlueRep in CADS' Rhythm in Blue '07

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Congratulations!
Looking forward to a three-peat next year!

fight!

there are labels

that need not be

there.

simply 'cause

it kills those

without.

lisnin to Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie
sortof readin business strategies
feelin kinda pushed to the limit, animo is spirit

got this from pepi who got it from someone:

ANIMO ATENEO!
One Big Fight!

happy for you

i am real happy
for particular people in my life
right now

and currently
figuring out ways
in order for me
to be
real happy
of myself
too

there were better days

because
it's days
like these
that test what hope
really
really
means.

lisnin to eyo-eyo eyo-eyo, some annoying school chant
sortof readin the future
feelin kinda behind.

and it's great the games are there to cheer us up

my apologies | a friendly letter

during one of many musical rehearsals, somebody once joked that I would be doing a Gloria and say I'm Sorry to the public as a leader in the future. little did i know how soon that joke would be realized. anyway, seriously now.

Dear fellow Atenean,

I take full responsibility for the confusion.

When people ask straight to me about the issue,
always my response is:

there is no dress code just yet.

Sadly, that isn't as sticky as a haircut-rule rumor.
and I failed to make it as official a statement as possible.


I was the first student told of the idea of a dress code for all members of the Loyola Schools, including faculty, staff, administration officials and students.
And I agreed with the conclusion that Dr. Cuyegkeng herself first bring up the idea to representatives in a plenary before even discussing it with anyone (the way we handled the changes in ORSEM last year, i.e. straight to org presidents).
That way there will only be one version of the story and that we settle it swiftly with all stakeholders involved.
Sadly, stories abound and we've heavily relied on the forum tomorrow for a solution.


Again, my apologies
and I pray you still have hope for Sanggunian.
but the fact that there is a big need to clarify
means there is something seriously wrong
with our information management systems.

Dialogue works.
And so see you tomorrow.

Animo Ateneo!

Karl Vendell Satinitigan


P.S. If you can't make it, your Rep will be pleased to forward your concerns.

eli's "Sa mahal kong Atenista"

sometimes, it's the weirdest of issues that let you see who you really are, or what you really stand for. well said, eli.

"Bakit pag suspension of classes, dress code at smocket ang usapan, ang bilis kumalat ng balita, tapos kapag mahahalagang bagay at proyekto hindi?

"Atenista, elitista ka nga, ngunit ano nga ba ang maipagmamayabang mo? Mabuti pa ang mga dekadang nakalipas kung saan mayabang nga ang mga Atenista sapagkat mayroon silang maipagmamayabang talaga. Maipagmamayabang ba ang partisipasyon sa mga organisasyong pumaparti lang at kumikita ng maraming pera? Maipagmamayabang ba ang pagiging patapon sa mga klase ngunit nakaka-alas pa rin kayo? Maipagmamayabang ba ang paglalaban kuno sa mga karapatan ng mag-aaral habang tinatalikuran ang mga tungkulin nito?

"Ang buhay ay hindi lamang tungkol sa pamumuhay sa palasyo mong may aircon at suot-suot mo ang panyo mong ginawa mong tshirt at pekpek shorts. Papakialaman mo lang ba talaga ang may direktang koneksyon sa pamumuhay-mayaman mo? Tapos magpapanggap kang may pakialam ka sa mga kababayan mo kasi nag NSTP o JEEP o Immersion naman na di mo naman gagawin kung hindi ito kailangan para sa iyong grado.

"Iangat muli ang kalidad ng pagka-Atenista.

Kung ayaw niyo sa isang paaralan na may prinsipyo at paniniwalang olistiko

Kung gusto niyo lang ng mataas na marka nang hindi nagtatrabaho

Kung gusto niyo lang dalhin ang pangalan ng isang paaralan kahit wala kayong maitutulong sa pagpapaangat ng pangalan na ito

Kung ayaw niyo gamitin ang utak niyo bago magsalita tungkol sa ibang bagay, o kung gusto niyolang husgahan na walang basehan ang mga taong may tunay na pag-aaruga sa inyo

E di lumipat ka na. Dun ka sa Taft, sa Diliman, sa Morayta. O mabuti pa, dahil kahit ang mga eskwelahan na iba ay may prinsipyo rin, dun ka na lang sa Call Center, kung saan magagamit mo ang conyong Ingles mo nang todo-todo. Problema lang, kahit sa call center may dress code."

never will be

he took it
with a lot more eagerness
than usual

than necessary
than what he thought was
bearable
convenient
nice
easy

he would faint
only to swallow
much pride
and incoherence

for the clouds
they look different now
no more
pirate ships
funny shapes
fluffy sheep

they're all just
um

clouds now.
weren't they always, karl?

he would frown
he doesn't know
he says though

in fact,
they weren't always.

of poise and rationality

he chimed in with a:
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

and Panic! at the Disco adds with
it's much better to face these kinds of things
with a sense of poise

and rationality.

now if i only really listen,
an utter deafness, perhaps,
would engulf me

similar to what de certeau
describes in
white ecstacy,
this philo reading by sir calasanz.

only there he talks of blindness
and ones one sees
and seeing


or maybe i've just had
too much mongolian for dinner.

lisnin to I Write Sins not Tragedies
sortof readin Complete Philosophical and Theological Treatises of Anselm of Canterbury
feelin kinda smarter, more loved. feeling

a lot like Ang Sarap Maging Atenista
something you can't entirely dispute

'cause we're all entitled to feelings,
especially the good ones.

sanggunuman

well, what do you know...,
said the elder to the younger.

i don't know really,
so the younger replied.


haven't been acting like a leader lately.
more like some old fashioned manager
trying to learn the ropes.

crap. way into the middle of the year.
but a turnaround is in sight.

i just wonder how to pull it off.
sometimes.

do allow me to be unsure sometimes.
with a few bottles of beer
and a couple of marks that may make you
look squeamish.


paging mr abarcar of the economics department.
could not find any extra tickets, sorry.

enjoy the game like the rest of us.
me so excited
though i don't look like it.

lisnin to elvis presley-ish songs
sortof readin a call for auditions, must think it over


and over
feelin kinda overslept. sorry gio, missed the trip to cabuyao.

waking up when September ends

it has been increasingly hard to wake myself up lately.
not that there's nothing to wake up for.

believe you me, there are a countless lot.
and i am really really happy for that.
and i thank God the Father dearly for that

he is someone i have a renewed, reinforced sense of faith in
and i thank sir calasanz for that.

it is just that i still am the night owl that my interests want me to be.
i still am in need of some other to wake me up
to make sure that i actually wake up
in time

for stuff i've committed my self to do.
blunder.

and i thought living in a place so near would help.
it sorta does.

i hope i wake up just in time.

lisnin to this Beautiful Girl song
sortof readin social entrepreneur stuff
feelin kinda sick with the flu