here's a real sincere and highly appreciative
WHOA
to the universe.

so how can we all just get along?

i was teary-eyed again watching the terminal on hbo. and i realize what i really really want to see before i die. perhaps my greatest greatest source of happiness and utter fulfillment.

seeing people do stuff together.
harmonia

you know that scene when mr navorsky is finally going out of the airport, out to new york, and the entire airport was involved. they all wanted to own the moment. and they did. and it works for me. and it's just so fucking hard to achieve, even articulate. in a way that works. no buzzwords, no mush, no crap. just real freaking harmony.

not the kind where everyone's stuck with their own stuff. more
God bless

lisnin to Do You Remember the Time - Michael Jackson
sortof readin confidence intervals and linear programming
feelin kinda thankful

my premier Trust frenzy

they say it keeps you protected, may easily be broken, only for one time use, and may come with other stuff. true.

and our communities hardly have any.
trust is so not around you only get $300 as credit card limit even if you've got $100,000 in the states just a year ago.

trust is so not in place it takes weeks to reinstall your internet, your cable, your everything even if you are one and the same person only in some place else.

trust is so i don't know where that i'd have to leave now and finish this some other time.
geez

little by little

i have a pair of short short socks that somehow get taller by the end of the day. i wear them today taller than usual. and it is getting really weird to look at.

such are the little things in the world. they change when you do not want them to.
next thing you know you are used to it and a new changing begins.

lisnin to keyboard noise
sortof readin short messages
feelin kinda sick. better but still sick

whoa

why
how
only
any

wonder
hunger
order
ache

wither
habit
opine
arouse

wink
hustle
outdo
avow