I'm wrong

it takes a while for me to admit i'm wrong
a long while

probably 'cause it almost always ends up well
turns out right
feels good after everything

but recently it has taken longer than usual to appreciate that thought.
it didn't help that we lost yesterday
'cause i was in gateway not feeling so well
not because we lost
but because of a variety of reasons

but i couldn't look sad with that
ang sarap maging Atenista
shirt in front of every FEU, DLSU shirted stranger
'cause, um

it still felt good to be proud of the school
i just wasn't so proud of myself.

i picked up a book,
a mathematical inquiry into infinity


it's nice to wallow in nothingness sometimes.
only to be slapped in the face with, um,

huge-ass everything.

lisnin to sabz presiding over a kasombahay meeting here in sanggu
sortof readin school council minutes
feelin kinda surprised of today.

write-up season

write-ups mean yearbook and yearbooks mean looking back and looking back means goodbye and goodbyes mean i'm a senior.

wow.
and i have been acting like i am not saying goodbye in a few months or that i don't intend to or that i ridiculously do not mind. i don't even want to say anything about ateneo yet or how i loved being here or how it all started.

'cause there's this huge chance i might linger on and spend more dough staying in barangay loyola heights, which has five areas that i want to know more of. a huge huge chance brought about by that humiliating fact that i do not want to go to some of my classes.

which is weird.
my not going to class will force me to go to more classes.

another weird thing is anj's calling up UP's trunkline.
she calls for their UP student president's contact number and lo and behold they give her mine.
how absurd is that.

no wonder i get messages from students all the way from pangasinan or bataan or wherever. i don't mind. all cool. makes perfect sense for a write-up

lisnin to Stronger by Kanye West
sortof readin book 7 of You-Know-What. thanks abbi, still no write-up for you
feelin kinda tricky

a phenomenology of No Classes

allow me to waste space with a disclaimer.
i may well be in my third semester of philosophy but i don't think i'm already that equipped to throw the word phenomenology around. but here i go using it 'cause here's how i perceive of announcements called No Classes and how we students react.

it would be real hard to generalize. but some anecdotes may shed light.
i remember this student who was so anxious to know whether there really are no classes the next day only to complain on the day itself that he's all bored and with nothing to do.

there are those who spread outdated web pages with actual Ateneans spreading it further without reading how outdated they are, how it was about some storm of long ago.

or this student who would throw at you a text message after another that he got from different other people proving to me how there are in fact No Classes and that i should just confirm it. in short, people who would ask of my opinion but would not make anything of it.

so why bother asking?
that line is a hint that this may all just be a rant.

it may very well be but you have to give it to me.
responses to a No Classes rumor are very very interesting.

especially because a lot of us complain how tuition fees have risen or how there's not enough time to learn a lesson.

there should be a couple of dimwits out there who are laughing right now for triggering all this rumormongering and of how many of us fell into their capriciousness. i laugh with them, especially 'cause buzz marketing is a very hard thing to pull off.

but maybe because we enrolled is the reason why we have classes and why we don't have No Classes as much as we want to. or maybe i could say this 'cause i'm well into my last year of school.

my last year of school.
i think i need to, um, say that more often to myself so i do graduate on time.
i already hear father dacanay laughing.

lisnin to some 50 first dates song
sortof readin a philo reading
feelin kinda weird and small

owner lost

choosing, taking risks

words often repeated in core classes.

with owning up usually left to the idealist, the disturbed.

michael kinsley has an interesting commentary on carbon credits: a time magazine article

also interesting is how

letting them realize

without letting them realize

you're letting them realize

still holds water. i had finer days.

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untitled and lazy

with all modesty aside
you reach a point in your life
when it's not about proving anything to anyone anymore

not to parents
to relatives
to friends
to relations
to superiors
not even to God.

one simply does stuff.
and that others feel good in the process [or worse, only in the end] is hardly the best way of putting it but i'd rather stick with looking at it that way.

you don't stop of course. just because you're not out to prove anything anymore.
in fact, one proceeds further and with deeper conviction, 'cause reasons get harder to find or grasp or see.

one slacks off every now and then.
why of course. like i mentioned months before.
when the opportunity to slack off becomes more and more appealing.
one confuses the other slash others.

and the world disturbs many anew.

lisnin to The Killers' Mr. Brightside!
sortof readin on political violence
feelin kinda bewildered. in the best sense of the word

of 7-peso eggs

i could be so disappointing sometimes.
especially to myself.
makes me more endearing.
even if only to myself.
of course.

there's a song in the 25th annual putnam county spelling bee that goes
life is pandemonium.
those kids got it early.
it takes a while for the rest of us.
worse, we drag along other people,
almost always unconsciously.

but in the final analysis...
wahehehe. i'm starting to hate that line.
...in the final analysis...
it's so hate-able 'cause when is final finally final.

anyway,
when do i leap?

lisnin to Usher and R. Kelly realizing they made out with the same girl
sortof readin M. Night Shyamalan's The Village reviews
feelin kinda zigzagidy-ingly lazy and spoiled

Wanderful world

to whoever coined the word relativity, goojob.

pretty interesting how annoying or disengaging people can get sometimes.
interesting too how necessary i have to nag myself nowadays.
and most interesting how days go by.

i have this homework for my social innovations class where we're asked to write professional and personal goals for the next 5 years. dreaming sure is fun.

especially when you keep your feet on the ground.
but enough mush for now.

it's nice to take note of the end every time.
it's nice to murmur or to scream.
it's nice to relate and keep relations.

it'd be nice to pull it off.
mind wanders yet again.

lisnin to thoughts.
sortof readin thoughts.
feelin kinda thoughtless.

there are days when the hows are the tougher questions to answer than the whys.

those days have been increasing in number lately and it feels good that they have.
i pray i don't forget the whys and a semblance of an answer.

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Ladidadida Me

to music i owe a lot.
discipline being one of them.

it's a lot less dismaying, depressing world,
a lot less boring and a lot more eventful.

egology was what sir calasanz said that i seem to be locked in.
and the entire class knows that.
his philosophy of religion quiz i again missed earlier.

i googled for a meaning but to no avail.
maybe i got the word wrong
or maybe he got me wrong.

either way, he's right about that it's-all-me-me-me stuff
and to think my alibi has always been
that i never want to lose my self.

but how about getting too self-absorbed with self-absorption?
how does that play out?

i better go listen to more music.

lisnin to Ne Yo
sortof readin Japanese. FINALLY
feelin kinda sleepy despite doses of sleep

nice and slower

it takes a while to translate visions.
but i never really thought it would take this much time.
must revisit expectations
must recount hours of sleep
must recall all dreams, plans
must renew commitment to self-discipline
must reconsider how i sell things
must remind.

i think i got it right when i said there's a huge perception management problem. we will see in a bit.

lisnin to Fall Out Boy
sortof readin New7Wonders
feelin kinda proud. my shirt reads:

ang sarap maging Atenista

mon and sir jun sure got that right.
you'd get it right too if you watch:

"...without reason or cause"

here's what the inquirer has to say about guingona's change of tune:

Like the Left that now claims disinterest in seeing Estrada punished, Guingona seems to have lost his capacity for outrage over the excesses and abuses Estrada stands accused of committing while in office. The result is a distorted sense of justice and a propensity to cast doubts on the integrity and independence of the judicial process without reason or cause.

our elders did EDSA II for nothing.
EDSA is just a highway.

we're better off reading GoodNewsPilipinas, GNP!

exact Change

i just noticed how almost all cab drivers i've rode with recently are actually giving me exact change already. could this be a revolution in metro manila cab driving history?

cool.
exact change too
is what will happen in the next few weeks.

something good is brewing.
and it sure is beautiful.
cool.

lisnin to Songs for a New World
sortof readin Naming God
feelin kinda heavy. food glorious food.

some guilty pleasures

i need to trim my self up. like seriously.

i've been cutting like crazy.
oh well.

first read this from pineds, how the simpsons is making sure "the movie stands out as a true cultural event this summer." they change a couple of 7-Elevens to actual Kwik-E-Marts. and fox didn't even have to spend a cent, 7-Eleven paid the bill.













they call it reverse product placements.
and this may raise some eyebrows but they even have Apu!

lisnin to George's Talk To Me
sortof readin sorry letters
feelin kinda happy for today's MVP Leadership Forum.

GNP!

www.GoodNewsPilipinas.com

one of many good sites.
be good, spread good.

hands full

time still is on my hands.
and that feels really good.

may i just say a couple of stuff:
-i think trinoma's got poor operations management, lines everywhere.
-i think it wasn't so dumb an idea transferring malls to watch a movie
-i think it's cool drinking cool stuff with cool people
-i think reminders help
-i think too much, enough to say it ain't too much after all

lisnin to a linkin park song that was played during the closing credits of that uber cool transformers movie.
sortof readin pricelists of computer stuff
feelin kinda elated. hehehe