good enough

ma says that pa suggests i rest in cebu for a while, or in her own words:

kaon tulog usa.

she always opens with that ("pa says...")

when she knows i'd say no. and i did.

i miss family.

but i am super sure these are the best years to be by myself for some time.

sir rudy agrees. sir eddieboy agrees.

my mom and dad, deep in their hearts, agree.

i think.

and if you're wondering why this exercise of justifying

my current state of affairs,

one probable reason is that this isn't the 21yo karl

that karl imagined 5 years ago while entering college.

there was no way then that i'd think of, say,

putting up a business or two at 21

or do marketing in kyrgyztan

or travel with just a backpack

or work for an underrated vacation island

all good possibilities

and no pressure so far. weird how

when you have no deadlines to miss, you end up missing deadlines.

there i said it. i miss deadlines.

my world is normal again.