for freedom

for freedom is never baduy.

a friend now based in hong kong
asked me last night
what the chances are of martial law again.

i said after many disclaimers, 10% or less.
he needed a number, i gave a number

but the truth is i really don't know.
what i do know is that

i like waking up at any time of my choosing
i like going home at any time i may want
i like choosing from so many the movies i want to see
or the plays or the songs or the books or the clothes

or the food.
i like not having to worry about all that i want to write
i like not having to mind anyone's security detail
i like not having to care where to pass by at night
i like not having to demand for my rights

i don't know which of these i will lose
if that little girl does lose all her sanity
but i believe freedom's a basic need

and if i'd have to be public enemy just to prove that,
then it's worth a try.

a little paranoia won't hurt.