give and stake

maybe i'm pushing it but yeah
there's so much at stake when you start giving.

probably why i never really gave much.
rereading and rereading that, i realize it's not so bad a realization after all.

so instead of simbang gabi-ing [would have been my first] with ryan and lizzie and dani, i am at aids studying finance for my long test in a few hours. me waking up aids in a while, 430am or roughly 10 minutes from now.

God, i have so many to thank you for.

flip, a headline from The Economist:
More evidence that circumcision can slow the spread of HIV
so bawal na supot, laging tandaan.

aaron, all's good never sounded more true.

khalil, next time.

camille, it's funny how you had to share that he's still bitter. hmm. i say it to the world 'cause that's exactly what you just did.

and to all the people who love and who do not love and, most especially, who know when they are or are not loving, you make living and loving a lot more interesting [before i actually typed the 9 words immediately before these bracketed, sudar (aids' condomate) pops out of nowhere and it seriously freaked me out. apparently from another late party, it then led to a really good conversation (one of the coolest in recent memory, seriously) on selfhood to orientalism to impressionist art to sondheim to collective wisdom to disparities to why not a lot of people are always happy. almost 6am plus the right amount of alcohol equals real good dialogue]

lisnin to All Falls Down - John Legend and Kanye West
sortof readin the inquirer
feelin kinda loved. and dance-y

i still think D.O.M. is demeaning. thank you anyway