there is life Inside your apartment

part of the reason why i refused to be at the cast party at pearl's resort.

decided to stay home right after dropping my mom at the airport.
right after theology recollection this morning i decided to spend a good time with my mom and my uncle's family, a good way to close the past nights of catching up with how my mom is doing. it's been almost a year since i last was with her.

all good. a greater appreciation of that life
inside your home--

one's family. which i've been a part of far longer than my blueREP family [partying tonight as i type] and my strains family [especially that team that had a 6 hour thing last night] and all the other families i have been and i will be a part of

more than all the lives i've encountered and will encounter outside home, the lives inside it i hold dear and today's decisions make me feel better because it affirms that personal belief.

baristas may be grumpy or internet connections may be faulty or airports may be mismanaged or accounting papers may be tedious or waking me up may be hell, my family will forever treat me as family. and i treasure that

and so i'm home.
watched Brokeback Mountain. everyone has said everything about the movie already i think but what striked me the most was how everything came across as real. i should finish andre's copy of proulx's short story the movie was based from. that story with two sheepboys felt very real. no wonder an "anti-pornography" group filed a complaint against MTRCB for its decision on the movie, the sheer truthfulness [at least to me] can be very disturbing to other people who forever look at taboos as taboos

and as i wonder how much fun the whole cast is having right now, i rest with the fact that the day wasn't so bad. today and the many days prior [especially thursday] prove how very fortunate i am. thank You

lisnin to Inside the Actor's Studio with Antonio Banderas and realized i still have not seen Philadelphia.
sortof readin Pablo Neruda's book of questions. beautiful. just beautiful. i'll share my favorite questions here in a while
feelin kinda blessed