making Sense

i guess a good part of this week is making sure that whatever i do say sing dance choose makes sense. almost every week is

but when you stay in school past bedtime to better your telling a story or when you skip a reviewer class for a presentation on corruption or when you reply to an editorial about past mistakes or when you actually are in front of a very good audience or when you actually are discussing to a class something gradeschool teachers teach or when you fill out an application form for this org or that or when you defend yourself against accusations of distributing sex videos or when you're all gathered against a stupid proclamation of emergency or when ateneo lex gives you an award. all in one week

then it makes sense that it really is about making sure you are making sense.

even today, saturday, is full. two shows of Sweet Charity. one oral defense for LS10. one induction ball for sanggunian. one awarding ceremony slash party for lex. but one endures. without forgetting to pat one's back once in a while

an Avenue Q song was stuck in my head the whole morning when i was busy with that corruption presentation. it was that song recalling the singer's experience of cramming a final paper. i certainly was not suffering as much but i suddenly realized the song's title actually is "I Wish I Could Go Back to College" and so one wonders why one longs for parts of a something that are insignificant, if not painful and if one will ever say that line in the next few years.

and so one remembers what ms. chari shared right before Opening Night's show: it's up to you to make the simplest most seemingly insignificant moments count. or something like that. something about making each moment count. making sure each moment makes sense

but one also needs to remember that being senseless is at times good enough a proof that what you're doing makes sense. senseless sense-making

lisnin to Wicked's What is this Feeling?
sortof readin Pepping Up Pinoys: A study of the men's grooming products industry in the Philippines for LS10
feelin kinda fortunate.