not funny anymore

it reaches a point when it isn't funny anymore.
when you come into grips

with the ones you said goodbye to
















and feel the almost-full repercussions of your decision.
from friends to places like cebu to the stage to a vice

add to those delusions of possibilities,
of the seeming chance to change that already-made decish.

irresistibly seeming at that.
we cope and pause
and suddenly whoever said
that you don't really love it if you've never thought of quitting it
sounds right for once

and for all the thought of quitting, of giving up,
of doing that final worldly farewell
you realize you love it damn so much.

and so the decish suddenly is so manageable.

lisnin to Justin Timberlake Live Performance at Victoria's Secret

sortof readin thoughts on pinoy bantay bayan as a student spinoff
feelin kinda emo. haha, look who's emo now.
whatever that means.
but seriously, from the VorCE mass this morning to the whoa-that's-cool-but-wait-
the-next-is-cooler-then-the display of fireworks that greeted me as soon as i got home, been meaning to shed tears.

if only to ease the disturbed.