sneaky preview

that trip to bohol was short but was just great.
[i'd probably speak of the entire holiday break the same way]

and i managed to sneak myself away twice for me-time.
you see, i was not only with family but with cousins too [cousins who i just discovered can really really really sing well. like really] and we were quite a lot. like we managed to occupy half of one of those floating restaurants in loboc river.

managed to check out a centuries-old loboc church alone while they were feasting on tarsiers and souvenirs. it was three stories of old old stuff. and those windows with squares, i just was staring at them. and by old i mean i-think-this-floor-aint-strong-enough-to-support-me old.

managed to check out and dip in the latest addition to bohol beach club while they were playing tag in panglao's fine fine sand. to have the pool all to yourself with a glass of long island iced tea and what i thought was a snake. i had to explain to the lifeguard why i was alone, then we talked about bohol living and why it ain't so bad.

i asked this to some people last night: why do we have to leave it to see it?
that's 'cause that question popped up within so many different contexts all throughout the trip, even after [when i was checking out cebu straight from the port without taking a bath for 24 hours and having to dine with the most beautiful friends in the world at ila puti, which is so fucking good you just have to try it]

yes, i had to tell everyone that i haven't had a bath since that pool all to myself the night before, guess i loved it so much.

anyway, the question raised some conversations including sir ariel's "...but that's if we get to see it after." or aaron's "...or else the wait is forever." he was right on the letting go part, and i think it also has a going through part.

because i honestly was disappointed with some of what i saw in bohol.

like churches restored disrespectfully [or so i think, 'cause who dictates what baclayon people have to let go of and will they still see the church if they let go of why we went there the first place]

like caves poured with cement ['cause i know we have to spread the love and let more and more people see the beauty but do we have to let go so much just so more people like me could see it]

not making much sense. probably i'm still surprised with how beautiful the many people and the many things are that i haven't seen for two years at least.

'cause my next question would be: would it have been as beautiful if it weren't two years or if i didn't leave at all?

those year-old previews were there for me. i'm happy they're more beautiful each time i get to see them. and maybe they do have to be that sneaky.

lisnin to Kokomo
sortof readin Ms Cebu 2007. the young and the beautiful
feelin kinda aww-ful