on doing Nothing yet again

yes, to "do nothing" seems so passive as a philosophy.
and with the gazillion things going on in my life right now and the more than a gazillion choices waiting to be chosen, that way of thinking just doesn't seem to apply.

and so i put more thought into it.
and so i realize that that way of thinking is more of a post-event thing
and so it ain't my way of looking at life as a whole but my idea of how to look at this certain huge part of life
and so here's what i think:

my notion of
doing Nothing applies only when making a reaction, thus something has to happen first before i decide to do nothing. that something is not limited to those influenced by external factors, it could be my own personal decision or will with seemingly no logical basis whatsoever.

doing Nothing may then be defined as that. doing something that seems so illogical that i cannot seem to personally explain my actions. this may be because something [or someone] convinces me with a seemingly illogical idea to do such an action and so i do nothing but be convinced

with those
i now can say i do have huge control over my life.
insisting that i do nothing my entire life [with however i try to define doing nothing] kills the fact that i do have the power to decide and proves that i am independent from that something [or someone] that is so good at convincing me on how to react. that certain something or someone that i strongly rely upon

and so
yes! i do something.
in fact it even seems i'm planning to do everything, which is crazy but that certain something or someone has a very good way of stopping me from doing everything


whew.
clarifying that feels good.
my delicious page is now good too