maybe Maybe

the mrt elevator doors needed a little pushing at its sides today, so that they would close and eventually carry us up and so we could move on with our lives.
maybe that's what this country needs right now, a little pushing.
or maybe we pushed it too much.
maybe

my 2yo cousin miggy further proved earlier that he can distinguish what is dirty and what is not. whenever it is, he speaks [in an adorably cute fashion] eww eww eww. like when bits of cereal would fall on the floor or when this bentonite clay is on my face.
cute

my tita just informed me, my grandfather has spinal stenosis. it means his spinal canal is narrowing. he may need a laminectomy.
crap

i don't want to lose another grandfather in just three months. we lost tatay thanks to liver cancer just months ago and i don't want my mom to get real worried again. she tends to be real obsessive about medication and everything when someone is sick and she does not need that distraction right now. not now, puhleez.
crap crap

lolo will be fine. i know i posted it here before that tatay will. just weeks before he died.
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but dying ain't so bad.
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and oh, would like to share this neat spot in the web i found last weekend. they call it justcurious, so when you're curious you just ask away.
i asked "does it matter?"
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and i got tons of replies including:
"Nothing Really Matters - Madonna" from the united states
"Definetly, or would anyone ask a question if it did not?" from germany
"of course" from mexico
"If we truly believe in the ontoligical nature of this answer, then the answer is definitely 'who cares.'" from the united states
"Nothing matters, except maybe ..." from belgium

i love maybe. just add it to any word you say and you don't have to be held liable for it,
maybe

lisnin to "could you be... it's plain to see" -Prince, who's your most beautiful?
sortof readin what spinal stenosis really is
feelin kinda hopeful, maybe