come, back, score

i never thought i'd admit this to myself but i'm actually compartmentalizing.
worse, i'm having different moral ethical whatnot reasonings for each compartment. pretty convenient

so far.

it'd get back at me soon and maybe tomorrow, i slap myself so much i realize i should be fixing myself up. i thought i hated waiting, apparently i do it all the time.

what helps is that sometimes i get to mix it with a good book or a good glass of champagne or a good movie with a brilliant score entitled The Holiday. thanks abbi for the dvd. days are a lot easier when it's all good vibes.

I want to pee right now.

but i like this sorta philo conversation with my brother right now too so the peeing can wait.

i was asked earlier why amid all the multi-tasking i never freak out. i did not have a good answer. it was the usual "the usual" as reply. maybe compartmentalizing is the better answer. but i'd rather not be its advocate right now. "a week at a time" or "we do what we can" sounds a lot better and more open to interpretation.

my latest [meaning a month ago, sadly] reminder in keepReminding is this:
















and i just realized that forgetting ain't always bad. that sometimes we're better off
forgetting, we're better off forgotten.

it makes the reminding all the more special and the re-reminding a fucking good time. we come back and compartmentalize, for the mean time. whatever it means.

and how's that as an excuse to all the names and faces i do not remember.
today it was a record 6 people i called by a different name.

lisnin to thoughts
sortof readin thoughts
feelin kinda thoughtless