you're a Good man?

three in the morning:

if i start writing now
when i'm not really rested
it could upset my thinking
which is no good at all.
i'll get a fresh start tomorrow
and it's not due till wednesday
so i'll have all of tuesday
unless something should happen.
why does this always happen,
i should be outside playing
getting fresh air and sunshine,
i work best under pressure,
and there'll be lots of pressure
if i wait till tomorrow
i should start writing now.
but if i start writing now
when i'm not really rested
it could upset my thinking

which is no good at all.
-Charlie Brown on The Book Report, a song from You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown the broadway musical.

opened 1967 and revived in 1999 but already articulates very well a lot of true things.
scary.

doubt and faith and doubt and faith and moving on.